that one day in april
"You’re
willing to go all the way here for my sister?” asked Ebi.
I sat with Ebi that morning on April 20, 2025 and told her that we’re there for Lala. We as in me, Diana,
Nastiti, & Shelley. We heard the news that Lala been at ICU since the night
before and we definitely rushed to see her in the following morning. The answer
is: no question asked, just go.
Going
through so many friendships, I always appreciate those who doesn’t pry. Lala's like the silent pat in the shoulder and say, “Go ahead, I’m here for you.” She’s
that supportive friends who always find a fun thing to say even in the darkest
time. The way I always casually go to her and chat about small things I find on
the way to the office, or the meal recipe I see on tiktok the other day, and
tell her I see a pretty cardigans at the store at the mall and ask if she want to
check them together after this.
Of course, I
will go all the way for Lala.
All the
bucket list she has, all the food stalls she wants to go to, all the tiktok
challenges she wants us to do. I still have it all.
Sorry, I have
this habit to talk about someone in present time, and not in past tense,
because to be honest I just… can’t.
At 1 o’clock,
we took turn to go and see her. For the first time, I recited the entire
Al-Fatihah to her with Shelley’s hands on my back, trembling like mine. And I said
to her to let me go. It worried me sick if she keep hurting like that. It hurted.
We really
let her go at 21st.
wrote and edited on May 2
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