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art gallery yogyakarta

I watched this several days ago and it instantly reminded me of this art gallery in Yogyakarta.

I get this glimpse of the life i've never lived in my mind, from the reels, vlogs, or any medias I consume. I had open my heart to new experience last time in 2023 and indeed it opened me to magnificent memory. And each places have the tie to the other, like the video I mentioned above, my brain immediate catches the similarity with the art gallery @ Yogyakarta I visited last August.

Expansive landscape, massive water area, exposed cement, raw wall, lots of trees.

At that time, I was at this cafe in Kotagede and I scrolled away the social media. One post caught my attention and it's about this free-entry art gallery. Huh? Free entry? I travelled to Yogyakarta to visit the annual Artjog, while this art gallery is free entry? That intrigued me and when I commuted there (by my motorbike), it turned out it's only several miles away from my hotel. 

Amazing.

The place was deep inside the neighborhood, I almost rode past it if there's no big sign. The vacant parking lot showed that not many people discovered this place, or at least at 3 PM in Sunday afternoon. I trudged my heavy limb due to over-packed schedule that day and I drove around since the day before. But then when I walked passed the façade, the lush environment immediately greeted me.

The sun was no where in sight so it made the ambience a little bit gloomy. Extra green, exposed cement wall, and large windows. As I took in the scenery, the staff immediately called me to write down my name and contact before entering the area. No chaperone or anything, we're free roaming the sites under the obvious rules: do not go past the line, do not touch, do not litter.

KINIKO ART

what caught my eye in the first glance

Not gonna lie, but "is this SHINee????" was the first came into my mind.

I can't help but thinking of Jonghyun. And I dont know what direction this artwork lead to but it's beautiful. Understand and supportive eventhough you guys seen each other's soul (both good & bad).

Feels like i was getting pulled in.

what is my most favorite piece

I would love to take this and put it on the wall outside my bedroom.

Kiniko Art is open to everyone. Free. All you need is to write down your name and email, I think? I dont remember. It's been one year ago, the same time as ARTJOG happened.

They are having new exhibition from May 24 - June 7 with new ambience. Check here.

I'd love hanging out into this magical spot and have a long conversation about each painting but we just had to go after 2 hours cause it's closed at 5 PM. 

Hello, it's been too long since I write here. Look at all the dust, phew. I simply felt lack of energy and feeling not creative most of the time. I lost interest for the things I used to like before. Movies, books, conversation. Work left me empty. Even if I did trip, I was confused on how to put words and taken picture from the trip, to compile it into a comprehensive blog post. 

One by one, I opened my inside tap: emotion and mind. To try to let it all go.

I wear my emotion, not on the sleeve, but at right behind my back, far out of reach. Why, you asked. No one understands, I said. The insecurity, the worry, constant anxiousness, rage, perspective of how the world works. 

What steps do I take to open the tap?

1. Acknowledge the different backgrounds of where we come from

2. Understand

3. Understand, once again

4. Do what I always want to do, one by one







Went for a fun hangout with camera last Sunday. My friend, Fanny, asked me to take halloween picture. She's so good with makeup and she put on zombie makeup for herself. I put fake freckles on. It's funny how we didn't scout for places but we managed to find perfect spot just like we wanted. We found a broken hut, sun light sneaked up through the holes. Ideal for a creepy portrait, teehee.

And then, we just pranced around, taking pics here and there. Shoot the best angles. It was so much fun!!! It's been a while since I did it. Mainly, because I don't know why I take pictures.

For later, I want to try concepts that I found on Pinterest and I'd develop them according to my style. I'd love to do local concept though. I feel like there are so many local things that would be interesting to capture.

I've been channeling my inner photography-mania lately. Not that I aint interested in photography since forever, but being an INFP, my hobby changed in a certain span of time. For example, earlier this year, I determine to spend my time reading books. Because I feel like my English deteriorating. Hmph. Then, the following trimester, I focus on losing weight for my gals weddings.
Ha. Yeah.

And now that I found kodiakstag on tumblr, I really really want to open an account for street photo. Not that I'm on kodiakstag's level. He is so much more talented and he has like multiple cameras and also he travels a lot. He gets to explore USA and the north side of America with its beauty. I dont have the time and limited sources. I was thinking to purchase analog camera but nah, maybe I'll do that 5 years later. 
For now, let's just enjoy the digital source.

*whisper* Photography is kinda important to me, don't underestimate this fact *whisper*

Plus it's kinda strange to put my vintage edits on instagram because my feed is usually colorful. So, it's kinda awkward for me to alter the mood of my feed by posting pictures with vintage filter.
I decided to put on my edits on VSCO: angiedzk

I love VSCO cam but sometimes it gets too heavy with the filter and also the price is too high, the filter I mean. You get free filter, of course, when you install the app. But if you look further, VSCO provides more filters with purchase, so pretty but expensive (at least for me)

My inspiration:
Zoesuen
kodiakstag
coltre 
Loud like love


What interest you, lately? 

I'm much more a visual person than audio person. That's why I invested a lot on my instagram post (although it's not that neat and proper but I did try). And now there's this app that will provide you with refreshing images.
Welcome to Steller! You tell stories via writings and images at the same time, longer than you can share on instagram with modern design. Or "Visual Storytelling App" like what thenextweb use to describe this application. It used to be available only for iPhone. And yet you can find Steller on your Playstore (for Android).
You can say I immediately fall in love with this and there are bunch of genius writers, both local or foreign people. 



My favorite list of Steller story:
one from Dee 
two from Max
three from Francesco
four from Santi
five from NGTraveler Indonesia
six from My Travel Story

I adore the images and the writings: feed to my soul. Sadly, I cant make one because I dont have tools for that. You need to have Android v.5.1 or you cant install this beautiful app. *cue to dramatic sobbing*

I still have homework tho: how to express my feelings into words.
If you haven't noticed, I'll lay it out for you: I have hard times to express things. No, not writers block, it's just I'm not sure what I write is interesting enough to be read. There are plenty of drafts inside my brain but I don't express them. I write it own but I don't think it's suitable for public consumption. And that's why when I read great books, I go in awe and envy at the same time. I want to write too.... But, there's still long way ahead. Like what I told my friend, we need to write at least one page a day for practice's sake. In hope that we can make good piece of work.



Playlist:
Ed Sheeran - Who You Are
Cloves (OST Me before you) - Don't forget about me
Death Cab for Cutie - I will Follow You Into the Dark
Alex Turner - It's Hard to Get Around the Wind
DAY6 - 놓아 놓아 놓아 (Letting Go)
Dean - I`m Not Sorry (Feat. Eric Bellinger)
James Arthur - Suicide

Jadi, karena aku gak bisa karaoke..
Aku mikir apa yang aku bisa lakuin buat lebih nyegarin otak lagi.
Ber-se-pe-da.
Tumben...
Gak tumben ah, aku suka sepedaan dari dulu kok. Cuma akhir-akhir ini karena Ibu sama Tanteku keranjingan bike to work, aku jadi males ikut sepedaan juga. Gak tahu kenapa, gak tergoda aja. Dulu waktu SMP, aku sering sepedaan dari Bulu ke Puspowarno buat pinjem komik. Hampir seminggu tig kali. Lumayan kan?
Tapi tapi tapi... Lihat ada sepeda imut warna putih di garasi, bikin aku tergoda *kedip-kedip


Kekekeke, akhirnya dengan semangat 2011 aku keluarkan segenap hasrat untuk bersepeda sore ini. Yaiyyyy. 
Sayang aku gak punya foto sepedanya. Ntar kapan-kapan aku foto dah.
Aku sepedaannya gak terlalu jauh. Dari Pusponjolo, ke Puspowarno, Balad, Puspogiwang, balik lewat Puspowarno lagi, trus muter-muter di deket gang rumah, udah deh balik ke rumah.
Tapi sepanjang jalan nyenengin kok. Lewat jalan raya (apanya yang nyenengin coba), orang pulang dari kerja juga naik sepeda, ngelewatin gang yang ada segerombolan adik-adik main sepak bola
"Wah, iklan sek, iklan sek, Polygon.."  kata salah satu bocah tadi waktu aku lewat. Kekekeke. (Tulisan Polygon nya bener gak sih?)
Trus lewat gang yang lebar-lebar di Puspowarno. Banyak anjingnya, huh. Bagian ini sama sekali gak nyenengin. Trus nikmatin hembusan angin dingin di sepanjang jalan balik ke Pusponjolo. Juga ketemu 3 anak SD cewek yang kayaknya habis pulang main. Salah satu dari mereka masih pake rok merah lipit-lipit.
Mereka jalan iring-iringan sambil menyepak satu sama lain. Waktu yang satu nyepak, yang lainnya ndorong ke samping, trus ketawa ketiwi asik banget. Aku jadi geli sendiri. 
"Mbak, itu sepeda lipat ya? Hahahahaha.." kata salah satu dari anak perempuan tadi. Aku noleh, tapi mereka terus melanjutkan sepak menyepak satu sama lain.


Aku jadi ngiri, dulu aku pulang sekolah waktu SD gak pernah kayak gitu. Ya, gimana, mau pulang jalan, orang jarak rumah - sekolah lebih dari 3 km. 


Anyway, seneng deh sepedaan sore ini. Aku sih pengennya sepedaan lagi besok. Yaiy, lihat besok deh. 


Cao. Mandi dulu yaaaa.. :D

kemarin Sabtu, hunting lighting buat Prisma. Hmmm.. Tau dimana? Hah, lihat aja foto di atas.. Itu memang hasil fotoku, tapi dari kamera hape. Agak aneh kan gambarnya? Tapi aslinya bagus banget tempatnya.
Masjid Agung Jawa Tengah

do you like writing? uhm, well, if you do have a blog, it's feasible that you like writing.. nah, I found this site from twitter, and maybe it can help you in writings stories.. check it out

English 50 Excerises for Story Writers

I downloaded file about vampire (again). I just read it. It contained many comments from some people. And they were like shouting comment there. They debated about vampires do exist and vampire do exist not. I dunno what to choose coz I’ve not seen any of them in reality. And I doubt there’re vampire among us here, Indonesia where has high temperature and I dont know someone who acts weird. Or they have so pale skin, sharp fangs, and all that. Here’s few of the articles :
You cannot be born as vampire – TRUE
Vampires are shape-shifters – TRUE (someone objected)
Vampires only active at dark – FALSE (instead they have use sunscreen spf 50!!!)
There are different types of vamps – TRUE
Vampires are immortal – TRUE (they have certain gene which control hormone aging)
The first documented cases of Vampires, seems to come from the Sumerians centuries ago – TRUE
Vampires only sleep in coffins – FALSE (hwahahahaha)
Garlic will keep you safe from vamps or even werewolf – FALSE
Vamps can fly – FALSE
The Christian cross will repel a vamp and make them powerless – FALSE

July 13th

I already finished ‘Perahu Kertas’ by Dee (the day after Idul Fitri). It’s good, made me want to read it till the end in one moment. So, that’s one morning, I sat down and I finished it. Get a mixblood isnt that bad.
Messages from the book:
1. BE YOURSELF so that the perfect guy in the school will falling in love with you
2. IGNORE WHAT PEOPLE SAY is more relieving than you heard everyone said about you
3. if your friend DECLINES A MATCH-MAKE for your other friends, that means she/he loves the target
4. IT CAN HAPPEN when you hug your boy/girl, one moment he/she is thinking bout their unrequited love
5. DO NOT EVER BELIEVE anything that you see in 10 meters distant
6. you MUST BE ABLE TO dechiper your bestfriend’s problem with only saw her/his face
7. go dinner in a half-dark place so that your partner will see your beauty (it's not that

if they want to make the film based on this novel, please, seek for fresh actress and actor for Kugy and Keenan role. Dont pick actor who has been at one tv series (sinetron) with bad acting. And also for Noni, Eko, Ojos, Wanda, Luhde, Jeroen.
Perahu Kertas rock!!!